Whole

In the month of October I will be linking up with other writers on Five Minute Friday for thirty-one days. Each day I will write about one word for five minutes. Here goes…

Many times when I work at words, I wonder if I have expressed myself exactly how I wanted. Did the words come out the way I expected? Did I go off in another direction I hadn’t planned on?

I have felt satisfied less than I want to admit. Mostly I wonder what I am doing; why I keep writing when it seems I don’t improve. I’m not like most, spouting fancy dictionary words. I am a simple person.

I quit once and for one whole year I never wrote in a journal, never wrote one word that might be called creative non-fiction. Possibly I was burned out from years of trying, but the truth is I was mad. I didn’t think I was any better for all the creative writing classes I took and years of going to conferences and taking endless notes.

I didn’t like myself. I was grumpy, irritable, and out of sorts the whole year. I couldn’t believe I held out for a whole year.

My writing may never improve but it makes me whole. What makes you whole?

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2 thoughts on “Whole

  1. I also believe the writing makes me whole. I would not have thought to put it that way. I do also struggle with the idea that I might not improve… so be it. 🙂 Thank you for sharing this. I got here from the FMF community page.

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